Higher Road Without going into too much detail, I will just say that the girl I was supposed to be proposing too tomorrow night completely shattered my heart and life 2 weeks ago. In short, she is a German citizen who'm I met as she was a'peaur'ing in the United States. We dated for 8 months in the states, and she returned to Germany on September 11th of this year. Since then we have seen eachother twice, and I was supposed to fly out to Germany on the 26th to spend New Years and the first part of January with her. I thought our relationship was tereffic (sp). Best I ever had, and we frequently talked about wedding. Out of no where, two weeks ago I get a message from her saying don't come to Germany, I can't love you anymore. It took me by complete suprise, and to make matters worse, she wont offer any more detail than "I feel like you don't love me anymore". Since that first day, she refuses to answer any of my calls, e-mails or text. Her sister and parents are now hanging up the phone on me when I call....I know there is something more, but she won't tell me. I've been going through hell the past 2 weeks, but today I finally feel I am able to get over it and continue my life. I wrote her a text message, as I have been trying to do, just asking her for a response...I told her that if this is what she wants, than I will accept it, but I can't completely give up if she doesn't respond to me...For the first time in 15 days, she replys with "Don't Call Me Again"....I wrote her back and asked her what she wanted me to do with the 4 crates of clothes, pictures, movies, etc...that she left at my house...She said "I dont have the money to pay for it to come back, so just throw them away".
As you can imagine, this initially enraged me. I really wanted to write her back and just tell it like it was....but I didn't...I thought about it, and cooler heads prevailed...I simply wrote her back and said thank you for motivating me, getting my life on track and helping me understand what an excellent relationship is based off of; trust. (its obvious that was all one sided, but I'm thankful that I learned that all the love in the world doesn't matter if you dont completely trust a person).
Anyways....I don't know why i'm writing this, but it makes me feel better...I'm really freaking glad I took the higher road, and instead of writing some mean and hateful things, I responded like a man...
Like I said, I don't know why the heck im writing this here, but its definately helping with my attitude, and for the first time in weeks, I am seeing a light and feeling like myself again. And its a good feeling.
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