[PurduePilot]

Thanks for all your support.

I guess I'm just frustrated and depressed because this has been my life for the past two months. I packed everything up, said goodbye to friends, and came down to a city I knew I'd rather not be in, to pursue a job that I'd had high hopes for.

What I encountered was hostile instructors and a super fast paced curriculum, that I'd admit I struggled to keep up with at times. When my other classmates went out drinking on the weekends, I stayed in to study. I was undeterred and kept my head down; no matter how much flack I took from the instructors I was determined to make this work.

Class ran from 7am to 3:30pm and by 3:30pm I was both mentally and physically exhausted. However, I was determined to pass my exam. So, I stayed behind to run and rerun the day's scenarios.

Because I have devoted so much to this, I'm going to give it my all on Tuesday. I won't lie and say there wasn't a time during training when I kept asking myself, "am in the right career field?"

I thought I could make it happen because there are people in this industry with no college degree and who haven't ever been in an airplane. Maybe I was naive in thinking I could do this job with my 10 years of flying experience and 4 year degree.

I know it's cliche to say that failure is not in my vocabulary. I have always seen things to their conclusion, be it good or bad. However, I do have to be realistic here. Maybe some people aren't cut out to be controllers. Maybe I am more of a pilot.

At this point, all I want to do is just get the heck out of OKC and back to my family/friends. All my classmates have graduated and I'm down here alone.

Thanks for listening.