[Windchill]

After reading your situation ... I would advise the following. Pursue your ratings to allow yourself to be a proficicient pilot, have the flexibility to fly to places and back home when the weather sours, and maintain a part-time gig (CFI) ... and fly as a hobby. Use your passion to fly you and your fiance/wife around to fun destinations.

At the rate you're going with the frustration, you may experience burnout with the flying, and the relationship may be gone before that.

It sounds like you sorely miss and place an emphasis on an enjoyable quality of life ... so persue that route.

Due to family/finances, I opted to shy away from flying as a career for now, and allow it to still serve the family as an enjoyable means of visiting family and friends.